I Am Better At Being Me Than I Am At Being You!

It's been several months since I contributed to this blog. Funny, I have random thoughts every day. I just journaled on my daily devotional blog that my mind never stops. It's always going non-stop and the older I get, the shorter attention span I have. I, of course, get back to the same subject again in a few seconds. It's back and forth, back and forth, back and forth (you get the picture) between dozens of thoughts, tasks, etc until something - maybe only one of them - finally gets completed. I think the world calls it multi-tasking. I call it adult A-D-D. Of course that wasn't my intention when I started this what was that intention? I'm sure I'll think of it shortly.

Until then, below is a draft that I found as I was trying to remember what I had been thinking about earlier today! I had forgotten all about this posting. It was started on August 23, yet today is Sept 12 and I truly don't even remember writing it. More confirmation of my A-D-D tendencies. Anyway, back to the draft:

I had a really cool worship service today. Pastor Matthew talked about God loving each one of us. He even had us quote scripture specific to ourselves: "For God so loved 'Angie'." I've learned to understand this. This was not a concept that I accepted easily. For years, I didn't like who I was but I've learned in the last few years that God loves me as me and I too should love me.

He Knows My Name
I have a maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hand

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
I have a Father
He calls me his own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
Words provided by e-lyrics from Tommy Walker - Copyright ©1996 Doulos Publishing

Fast forward to today, September 12! These thoughts are still pretty amazing to me. It's definitely a comfort for me. I think often about what is my purpose in life? Everyone has one. We were not created without one. I'm often overheard saying "be who you were created to be, not who someone else was created to be." I didn't create this quote - I'm not sure who did - but I've adopted it because I think too many of us - myself included - have tried to be something that we were not created to be. And a misunderstanding is that certain profiles and talents have a ranking and are better than others. That is so misleading and so wrong! For example, I am not book smart. I am creative, logical, a listener, observant, analytical, strategic, detailed, organized and maybe even funny every so often - but I am definitely not book smart - never have been and doubtful that I ever will be! I also don't have the greatest memory, but that's where the detailed, organized and strategic (i.e. solutions oriented) comes in really handy! For so long, I found that the lack of these two traits were a hinderance to me accepting me and loving me - well even liking myself for that matter.

If I could encourage anyone today, I would say learn who you are, embrace yourself and be yourself. Learn who you are: what you like - what you are good at doing - what you are not good at doing - what you are passionate about - what you dislike - what you wish you liked - what you wish you didn't like, etc. Ask all the questions you can think of and then capitalize on who you are. It doesn't mean that you won't work on strengthening traits within yourself, it just means that you know and understand your strengths and weaknesses and you were created with these specifically for a reason - there is a purpose for you being you (and me being me). It doesn't mean that we are better than anyone or that they are better than us. It means that we were chosen to have these traits for a reason and they were chosen to have their traits too. And if you look closely, you'll see that you both need each other (figuratively speaking). I believe everyone needs others. We weren't built to have everything within us - all solutions or gifts and skills to accomplish everything on our own. We were created as a human race to support and complete each other.

Now, I understand that I have a very specific faith that supports this - but this isn't what this blog is about. I have another blog for that - that one is a more personal blog about my daily journey of successes and failures in my faith. No, it's on this blog with my random thoughts because I believe that being created as a human race to support and complete each other can support most any spiritual belief. Life examples are my proof. My observation of life is that at some point in life we all fail when we've tried to do everything on our own. Or maybe we've achieved success, according to the world, but happiness or peace is missing, or we've isolated people and in the end, it's just the one person standing. You generally have to look at life over a period of time - nothing really seems simple or quick; although, this world would like to convey that things can come quickly when you want it bad enough. Is that the real meaning of life?

Isn't it amazing to have the confidence that you were created for a reason? It is for me. One day I will know the purpose and reason but for now, I'm ok with learning to embrace me for who I was created to be and the traits and talents that I was given. I've learned that with all my faults, I'm still a better me, than I am at being you!

Until next time......but in the meantime, what do you think? I love to know what others think and that includes you!

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